Writing Assignment #4.
A Roman Haunting
The ceiling of Chiesa del Gesù haunts me. When I first gazed upon the vaulted the ceiling I saw richly painted figures struggling to reach heaven. Their faces were full of anguish and despair. Hell strikes at those who could not reach the whisper violet clouds. Desperate hands reach out from above grasping those who are stuck below. I turn my back to them. I once again stare up and to my amazement they had moved! No, this can be, they are but figures painted on the ceiling. But wait, are they figures or sculptures? I cannot tell. An arm here and a leg there stick out teasing me. Gesturing, begging, and taunting for me to go to them. But how? How can I join them? I take a step back, I cannot help them, and once again they move! Am I dreaming? I circle around the ceiling and still they continue to move. They entreat me to help them. I quickly leave the church. The hot dusty Roman air fills my lungs and I am brought back. I am awake.
A Poor Attempt at the Taste of Gelato
The taste of gelato is too delicate and exquisite to write down in words. The light texture is reminiscent of cold smooth yogurt with a slight hint of sugar. The flavor quickly washes over my palette feeling my mouth with the essence of chocolate meringue, stracciatella, or panna cotta. The taste lingers on my tongue as I swallow. It does not leave a coat of sugar on my throat; but a longing to experience another spoonful. Spoonful after spoonful but I do not rush. With a sigh of regret I toss my small paper cup away after I had licked away the last drops. The desire comes back the next day for the refreshing gelato. The allure of the pale pink strawberry, daffodil lemon, and blood orange gelato draws me in. But it is the light green pear gelato that wins. Each mouthful is like biting into a juicy ripe pear without ripping through its flesh. I feel no regret. Tomorrow the cycle will begin again and who knows what I will pick.
1. Buy a Journal somewhere in Rome. Describe why you bought that journal, where you bought it, and was there anything interesting or unusual about the purchase or the person you bought it from?
For three days I searched for a journal to use and it was not until the class visited Lisa’s special store by the Pantheon that I found a journal. The store is called Cartoleria Pantheon and is located on a typical Roman side street facing part of the Pantheon. Many tourists pass by the store hardly giving it a moment’s glance unaware of the treasures that lie inside. But as soon as I stepped into Cartoleria Pantheon I could tell the difference. Outside the store the air is hot, dusty, and humid. Inside though, besides the quiet ambiance, the air is still. No longer are people jostling by trying to make the most of their short time in Rome. Rather people leisurely stop, stare, and touch the hand made paper and gift wrapping. I even felt lighter as I walked about the store as if I was walking on thick rugs that absorbed any noise that I made.
I smiled to the store owner and said, “Ciao” as I stepped inside but she just smiled back. I found the different piles of journals stacked neatly on a small table. One pile contained leather bound journals with different borders and engravings on the outside. Another pile contained paper journals with thick string used to wrap around the journal. Yet another pile contained simple journals with graceful flowers on the cover. This particular pile lacked the flair of brightly colored ribbons or thick leather binding instead they gave the impression that they were inviting with their lined pages. These journals would not mind if I did not draw pictures and only wrote on the lines. It was from this pile that I selected my journal. I preferred the simple elegance and the lined pages to the blank spaces of the handmade paper journals.
Along with the journal I decided to buy an ink set for one of my brothers. Choosing which ink set to buy was a difficult task. Each pen had a different handle ranging from slender sleek wood to extravagant silver detailing. Then after picking the pen I had to choose the color ink that I would like, black, blue, green, or red. I also had to decide if I would like any additional note cards or pen tips to complete the set. I chose a simple pen set with blue ink. The pen was silver and shaped like a large ostrich feather. With my ink set and journal in hand I mustered “Per favore” in the best Italian accent that I could to the shop attendant to signal that I was ready to pay for my items. But the shop attendant spoke English and was determined to use it. Rather than waiting for me to try and speak Italian to her, she said the price, and I was soon out of the store back on the noisy streets of Rome, but now with a journal in hand.
After buying the journal I intended to write about the different sites that I visited as well as any interesting experiences. However, I also brought a simple journal with me from Seattle and as time went on I scribbled my notes in the Seattle journal as well as my interesting experiences. In my elegant journal I recounted only the visits to sites that I went to with the whole honor’s group because I wanted to keep this journal tidy. I did not want to put random notes inside its graceful pages. However, because of this desire it lacks many of my most fond memories of getting lost south of the Vatican and my numerous experiences with different vendors. I hope now that as time goes on I will be able to write in my more humorous experiences as well as the different site visits before I return to Seattle.
On page 115 of Dante in Love, Rubin writes, “The Middle Ages were full of ‘folle voles’ – ‘mad journeys’: knights chasing dragons, crusaders routing infidel, sailors searching for new lands, popes plunging into politics. Patience is for wines and chesses and siestas. Otherwise Italy does not hold still. All those in Hell are there because of mad voyages.”
What, during your visit to Rome, was your folle vole? It can be real or a dream or a blend of both.
From the first day that I arrived in Rome I began my quest for a wedding dress. I wanted a heavily embroidered a-line champagne dress with a cathedral train. I was sick of looking at the same bridal white wedding dresses that every store in the US sold. None of the dresses were unique. I kept my jet-lagged eyes open on the drive to the Campo de Fiori hoping I would see a bridal store window showcasing their white, ivory, and champagne dresses. But I was in no such luck, I arrived only days after August 15, and almost all of the stores were closed.
I waited patiently for the first few days hoping with the long art history walks that I would stumble across a boutique. But time dragged on, and I still hadn’t glimpsed even a bridal white dress. Then we went to Florence, and the real hunt was on. I found an Italian yellow book in English and swiftly flipped through the pages. I checked the bridal section and there was nothing listed. Then I flipped to the wedding section and again nothing was listed. I asked the hotel attendant and then the waiters at dinner but no one knew a local boutique. So I was left to wander through the leather market, past the Duomo, and down to the gold market hoping I would find my precious store; or rather, that the store would find me. But all I found were gelaterias, restaurants, and pizzerias.
A few days into our Florence trip I was teased by the sight of a newly married couple. The bride was wearing a beautiful ivory dress with large puffy sleeves and a long silk train. She was busy posing for the photographer with her new husband. I started to walk towards her and then she smiled at me. It was a smile of pure joy and exuberance. It was the rare smile that people only smile when they realize they are pregnant or when they get married. I stopped suddenly and realized that I did not know enough Italian to ask her where she bought her dress; I could only imagine her smile turning into a frown as we stood there desperately trying to communicate. So instead of approaching her I waved and walked away.
After returning to Rome, Shawn, one of the instructors, mentioned that he had found a bridal store very close to the Campo. I took off immediately and found the store moments later. I eagerly pressed my face to the store window to look inside. I was only inches a way from the sparkly ivory dresses. I looked around the window hoping to see the store hours posted but there was nothing but the name of the boutique Atelier Aimée. I pulled on the door handle but it did not move. I then knocked on the door but nobody came. I switched back to yanking on the door but it still did not move. After a few minutes had passed, I stopped tugging and resolved to come back later.
When I returned the store had its hours posted, however, I had managed to come when it was closed for siesta. So I got dinner and came back. There were people inside sitting down probably waiting for the bride to be to step out of the changing room. I was giddy with excitement. The store was open! But then I tried the door handle. It was still locked. I knocked and knocked and eventually some men in the store glanced over at me. But that was it. I was once again stuck on the sidewalk starting in.
At this moment the store became my mad journey. I was determined to try on a dress in this store before I left Rome. I came back to the store a few more times but each time the same thing happened, the door was always locked. By the fourth time I stopped and looked up at the door. I thought to myself that I had to be missing something. But what? What was I doing wrong? Then it dawned on me that there was a buzzer that I had to push. It was located six inches above my eye level. I pushed the buzzer and a lady quickly walked over and opened the door.
I stepped inside and told the lady that I would like to make an appointment. She said to look around while I wait for her to return with her appointment book. I did so gladly and found three dresses to try on. I booked an appointment, listed the dresses that I would try, and soon found myself back on the sidewalk outside the door. But this time, I had a small invitation card in my hand. I was one step closer to completing my mad journey.
The day of the appointment came and so I went back to the store, past the window full of other women looking in and rang the door bell. I felt triumphant. Unlike the other women standing outside I held an invitation card. It was my exclusive pass to trying on dresses. A different lady this time came to the door. She asked for my name and upon hearing it she shook her head. She said something in Italian, but all I could say was “Non capisco”. She pulled out the appointment book and pointed to the days. It was Tuesday, the day that I thought I had the appointment, and my appointment was for Thursday of that week. With a great sigh, I left. My determination only grew stronger.
I returned to the store two days later. I was graciously led in to the one changing room after reconfirming the dresses that I wished to try. A few minutes later I had a wedding dress on. I did it! I made it into the store and tried on three of their expensive wedding dresses. Sadly, none of the dresses were the “one”. My folle vole was complete.
16. Silence and Belief
Santi Quattro Coronati is truly an exceptional cloister when compared to other cloisters like that of S. Carlo Alle Quattro Fontane. The cloister of S. Carlo Alle Quattro Fontane is roughly the same size of that of Santi Quattro Coronati but that is where the comparisons end.
Both cloisters are located near busy streets in Rome. In S. Carlo Alle Quattro Fontane you can hear the Mercedes, Fiats, and Alfa Romeos zipping by, however, at Santi Quattro Coronati it is quiet. Only the sound of pigeons flying into the cloister breaks the silence. The air is so still that you can hear the beat of their wings five yards away.
Both cloisters are rectangular shaped but the intentionality of each design is different. At Santi Quattro Coronati the cloister is inviting. It has multiple places for you to sit, and to enjoy the soothing sound of the fountain. You can gaze at the simple garden design, and memorize the lime green grass swaying with the wind. Time causally passes by allowing you to meditate on life and religion. It is the perfect enclosure. At S. Carlo Alle Quattro Fontane the ground is covered in taupe gray concrete, and its walls are bare and white. It is meant to be nothing more than an open courtyard before you enter Borromini’s masterpiece. There is no where to sit, and at the center of the courtyard is a concrete statue that vaguely looks like a well with a dull metal cross mounted on top.
Santi Quattro Coronati also has a covered walkway which surrounds the small garden. It encourages you to say and sit beneath the arches decorated with blue and red teardrops. Its walls glitter in the sunlight as if they were speckled with gold. They calmly invite you to enjoy the serenity of the garden and to remember its small details. S. Carlo Alle Quattro Fontane’s cloister on the other hand is completely exposed to the elements. It is not a pleasant place to stay for more than a few minutes. Only the sight of a person entering the cloister from the street reminds you that there is life outside of this barren cloister.
The dominant image of S. Carlo Alle Quattro Fontane is the dull concrete statue in the middle of the cloister and its monotonous walls. It is the only thing that comes to mind because the rest of the cloister is bare. Even the air tastes gritty from the un-swept bits of concrete kicked up by people passing through. As for Santi Quattro Coronati the dominant images are the small bronze cross on a wall above the cloister, and the cross shaped fountain. The sound and feeling of the cloister are also part of the image; the sound of the small drops of water falling from the fountain, the rustle of the wind as it plays with branches of the rose bushes, and the feeling of the sunlight resting on your skin. These are the dominant images because they convey the sense of peace, security, and harmony that comes from the cloister.
10. The Pantheon
Piazza Navona and the Pantheon are both very structured and follow almost rigid geometrical shapes. Piazza di Sant’Ignazio on the other hand is more chaotic and does not follow a geometrical shape. Piazza Navona’s main focus is Bernini’s four rivers sculpture. When I first saw the sculpture it was completely hidden from sight. However, the sheer size of the sculpture is still commanding. I came back a few weeks later and could only glimpse at the immense hands or feet that peeked out. Only after walking around the piazza did I get the sense of its shape. It is a gigantic ellipse. I could almost image the sweat on the horses’ faces as they raced around the edges with their chariots.
When I first entered the circular Pantheon my eyes were drawn to one side where mass was held. Leading up to that side was rows of white chairs neatly lined up. I then proceed to look up and saw the enormous oculus. I could not image how this building was built with such a large hole in the top. The sunlight poured through the oculus and lit up the Pantheon. I came back the next morning and saw the heavy doors open. The first door swung open easily. The second door put up an awful fight. Two men huffed and pushed the door open and yelled at each other in Italian. I was one of the first visitors in that day and the maintenance crew was still cleaning up. The air tasted like lemon scented floor cleaner. One small hunched Italian lady swept the floor. The dust bunnies danced across the floor like she had poured liquid nitrogen on them. Just outside the door a dark Italian man was deep cleaning the floor trying unsuccessfully to remove the green bird poop. Inside the Pantheon the noise of his deafening machine echoed and sounded like a trio of leaf blowers. It was also cloudy outside and the Pantheon was much darker than it was the day before. Little sunlight shone through the oculus and I felt alone.
I came back in the afternoon and it was still cloudy. It was the darkest I had ever seen the Pantheon. The oculus did not cast a bright shadow and the Pantheon was filled with a depressing ambiance. The Pantheon was also packed with tourists. Camera flashes went off left and right and I felt like I was in Saint Peter’s Basilica. I waited to see if it would rain but the continuous waves of groups led by umbrellas made me feel nauseated. On the way out I almost stepped on people who were laying on the floor trying to take photos of the dim oculus. I ventured back that evening and I could hardly see inside. It was so dark! Tourists in response increased the intensity of their flashes and for a while I could see red spots dancing in my vision. The statues inside the Pantheon were completely dark and almost no light shone through the oculus. The poor lightening inside the Pantheon seemed to signal the intention that it was about to close. Even though one door was closed multiple groups continued to press inside. Children too were not intimidated by the dark and ran about screaming.
A month later I could barely remember the gigantic metal doors and the herds of tourists seem like a distant memory. I can only recall the honey-comb shape of the ceiling and the gray oculus. I can almost hear Lisa’s voice in the background speaking about pagan symbols infused with the building.
Piazza di Sant’Ignazio is much different from the Pantheon and Piazza Navona. When I first entered the piazza I did not know where to look. The church façade jutted out into the piazza almost mocking it. The edges of the other buildings surrounding the piazza stuck out giving the piazza a sense that it was intruding. When I compare it with the perfect piazzas elsewhere in Rome it seems to be the Piazza that Pope Alexander VIII missed! Surely if he had seen this piazza he would have moved the church façade back, and cut off the encroaching edges of the buildings. The traffic too seemed confused and unsure of where it should be. I bravely walked into the center and thought how I was the only one there. I doubt few other people during the day enter the roped off center of the piazza.
Bernini’s The Ecstasy of Beata Ludovica Albertoni
The Ecstasy of Saint Theresa inside Santa Maria Della Vittoria by Bernini is surprisingly different from Beata Ludovica Albertoni. One of the first things that caught my attention was the size of the Ecstasy of Saint Theresa; it is much smaller than Beata Ludovica Albertoni. I am also visually drawn to the Angel in the sculpture. It is much larger than Saint Theresa, and holds a suspiciously sharp arrow that at any moment it will plunge into Saint Theresa. Only after the Angel has first absorbed my attention do I then look at Saint Theresa. The only light shining on the whole sculpture comes from a small window above. It lights the Angel but leaves Saint Theresa mostly dark. It is very hard to see the expression on Saint Theresa’s face. Her robes appear too heavy and cover much of her body. All I could see besides her face was one foot poking through the robes and a small hand.
As for Beata Ludovica Albertoni I’m first drawn to her face, and the upward tilt of her chin. Then I see her hands clutching her chest and the swirls of light robes that surround her. Her back appears arched and her knee projects out of the robe. Her facial expression too appears to reveal that she is in complete ecstasy. Her eyes appear heavy and her lips appear slightly parted as if she was letting out a moan of rapture. It is hard to ignore the sexual overtones in this sculpture. The single light source on this sculpture also comes from a small window and falls mostly on Beata Ludovica Albertoni face, emphasizing the idea that this piece does not belong in a church. However, it is not a violent sculpture like The Ecstasy of Saint Theresa, but one of joy.
I do not find it hard to believe that Bernini completed the Ecstasy of Saint Theresa when he was first beginning his career and Beata Ludovica Albertoni when he was finishing his career. The Ecstasy of Saint Theresa is a sculpture that was made to please a patron and I think it lacks his typical originality. Beata Ludovica Albertoni on the other hand is classic Bernini sculpture that is very unique and expressive. It truly displays Bernini’s genius, humor, and gift with sculpture.
2. My most striking details of my arrival into Rome.
I could not believe the different sounds that I heard when I arrived in Italy.
On the plane ride in I was surrounded by young high school aged Italian youth. Throughout the flight they yelled Hola to each other in their sing song Italian accent. I think that they may have just learned the word and they were very excited to practice it with each other. It was so strange to be surrounded by Italians speaking Italian. I thought that since I was on a British Airways flight I would be surrounded by British people flying to Italy for a vacation. Also the noise of them saying Hola to each other reminded me so much of my roommate and me practicing different Italian words and playing with the intonation of each.
My taxi ride to my hotel was one of my scariest moments of my life. The driver paid little attention to the lines on the road that separated on coming traffic and would constantly swerve over the line. When we were on the freeway the lines that separated the traffic into efficient equal spaces meant absolutely nothing. Most of the time he would drive straddling a line and would make other drivers go around. I am also pretty sure that he did not pay attention to the speed limit as he yelled into his cell phone. The driver would also take a left turn when he was in the furthest right lane blocking traffic and angering other Italians. We almost rear-ended three cars before we made it to the hotel. But that was after we had almost run down two pedestrians who just so happened to walk across the road when it was their turn. Eventually I shut my eyes and tried to relax but it was hard with the abrasive sound of tires screeching on the pavement desperately trying to bring the car to a stop.
After surviving the drive I arrived at the hotel quite late and did not venture out on my own until the next morning. Since all of my clothing and toiletries had been left in London I realized that I needed to go out and buy what I needed. But first I needed to obtain Euros. I tried three different bancomats but they would say some weird phrase in Italian that I interpreted to mean that they did not take my card. I wandered around for a bit and realized how different Rome was from the US and England. In Rome the cobblestones are much smaller and coarser from those in rural England. For some reason they do not last as long as those in England and the pavement is full of holes which I constantly tripped on. Also the sheer noise of the scooters is very terrifying at first. When I could not see the scooters coming I was worried that they would pop around the corner going very fast and would run me over as I waited to see if the bancomat would accept my card. However on a more pleasant note my hotel was located next to a Forno so I walked buy and could smell the freshly baked bread. It smelled heavenly. I could almost taste the soft texture of the bread surrounded by a thick homemade crust. It was strange however to walk around Rome. Most of the stores were closed and I did not understand why. The streets were like mazes and the buildings would curve with the direction of the street. I felt lost as I would try and look up at the sky and only see laundry hanging out of a window on a five-story building.
7. Postcard Revisited
Visit the same Roman site or work of art at least three times and do the postcard assignment each time. On the back of the postcard, describe what is different.
***On actual postcards****